today:

I had one of those days... last night we had all the teachers we enjoy hanging out with over for dinner... half at the restaurant across the road, followed by dessert at our house.

I went to bed feeling so tired i felt sick, i woke up, still feeling sick in my stomach. Downed some inner health plus with coca cola (maybe that was a big part of my problem?... I don't normally drink coke, but i'm trying to ween myself off sugar, so letting myself temporarily drink diet drinks...)

Anyway, just felt rubbish all day... a kid must of glanced in the window as I was typing up a work sheet in my free period, he walked on into my room and said, Miss you look sad, eat chocolate and offered me some! Once he left I got teary, I didn't feel sad before that.

I feel as low as I do when I have PMS... But that shouldn't be for another couple weeks, so it's random.
The ex- has decided he will see me, after randomly fb chatting to me. Strange one. I don't even care right now.

Loved him so much, still love his family, not sure right now If i love him, or if i even want to be friends with him... but hey I'll see him and see where things go or don't go...

Life goes on, and all that jazz.

Prayers And off to bed I go.

ps. I'm thankful for health, my family, my amazing best friends who I can tell about anything. I'm thankful for a past ex-boyfriend who strangely enough I have a much closer relationship with now... I would trust that dude with my life. Literally. Theres not many people I can say that about. I would have never thought I'd end up appreciating his friendship so much. I thought I wanted him out of my life forever when he dumped me... God has a plan for everything and can take my mess and use it to bless.