My Ebenezer

I'm in bed. It's 1.13am. I have to get up in 5hrs 45 min and fly back to college.
I've been lying here thinking. Sometimes you feel like you need to write out your mind. This is one of those times, so out comes the iPhone and here I am. So excuse my spelling mistakes and typos.

I've been thinking about God's will for my life. And how easy it is to say that I want his will to be done no matter what, until his will and my will oppose. I want God's will o become my will. I know he knows best. I've seen it so many times. Thehardest part is the moments where you don't get your way and you can't yet see or understand why God's way, this time, is so much better for you and his purpose for you than you could ever hope or dream.

It's these moments where I have to get out my metaphorical ebenezer and look at the things God has done for me in the past, the times when by him saying no to my desires that he's blessed me. "some of God's greatest gifts, are unanswered prayers" and I know that's been true many times looking back on my life I've said, "oh thank God we never got together, I had such a crush on him... What the heck was I thinking?"

I know God has been there for me in the past. And I know he'll be there in my future.I pray that I will only desire his will and that I'll be satisfied and trust him no matte what happens.

I pray for
Paitience and for
Peace.

"take my heart, lord will you take my heart. Until you move me I'll be still... You hold my world in your hands"