When the thought originated, I realised that I have never once in my life started liking a guy friend. I always liked them from the beginning or they just stayed friends. Which was nice. Drama free. Sadly since then my perfect track record has become less than perfect.
If feelings change, It brings up quite an awkward predicament. To risk the friendship for the possibility of something ' more' or to sacrifice the chance of ' more' to 'guarantee' the friendship?
There's this country song that I've liked since my now-ex bf got me hooked on country music. It's called "What if I Said" and it talks about his issue.
"What if I told you,
What if I said,
That I love you?
How would you feel,
What would you think,
What would we do?
Do we dare to cross that line,
Between your heart and mine?
Or would I lose a friend?
Or find a love that would never end?
What if I said?"
It's really lame. 'Cause the like part can go away fairly easily, but the awkward, ' Does he think I’m trying to hit on him just because I’m being friendly part' doesn't ever completely disappear.
I hate having lost that friend, but I can't make any attempt to hang out and be friends, without scarring him further away!
I was telling my best guy friend the abridged version of this story and he replied, "Let's never date unless u wanna definitely be my wife". I personally think this is really funny and I'm actually really touched by it. I love that kid, but probably not in the marriage type of way. It's not a friendship that I am willing to risk at this stage in my life!
Maybe that's the solution to all this shiz.
Arranged marriages.
Just kidding.
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