My Love, My Life

I'm extrememly tallented at weirding people out.  For a while... a long while. I kept me hidden, shrouded in my shyness.

But over time I realised, I like people for their weirdness... and if people don't like me for my weirdness then that is their loss.

The fact that I plan ahead, and over think everything can weird people out, that when I feel like giving a gift I do, my blunt honesty also weirds people out. I like to be upfront and I like to plan. The part that no one sees though is that although I plan, I don't like to be locked in. So although I may have long range 'plans' there is also always multiple escape routes planned if I don't want that to happen.

But I do need to relax a lot more, and try not to always plan everything, because having everything planned means I often rely on my own intellect and logic for my decision making- rather than remembering to ask God.

I want God's will to be done in my life most importantly. I really like this song at the moment. I've been thinking lately about all the things I need to surrender to God. My dreams for the future, My career, My money, My time, My friendships, My relationships. Thats probably my biggest one. I know that in the past I've liked guys that I thought were perfect, only to discover a while later that he was really really not right for me, and that it was a good thing that it never worked out.  But then I'll like someone new and want it to 'work out so bad'. I know God knows best for me, and I trust in him. So I want to stop caring about all that, and trust his plan for my life. I have moments of faith where this is easier and moments where it is not.

I love this song.



"My heart, my mind, my soul, belong to you.
My love, my life, it all belongs to you.
Belongs to you.
Belongs to you.

My heart, my mind, my soul, belong to you.
My love, my life, it all belongs to you.
Belongs to you.
Belongs to you.

The songs we sing,they all belong to you.
The air I breathe, it all belongs to you.
Belongs to you.
Belongs to you.

Yes, I surrender it all.
Yes, I turn it all over.
Yes, It all belongs to you.

Yes, I surrender it all.
Yes, I turn it all over.
Yes, It all belongs to you.

It all belongs to you.
It all belongs to you.

My heart, my mind, my soul, belongs to you
My love, my life, it all belongs to you.

It all belongs to you..."