This started off as thoughts about a guy/ guys in general and also just friends I've been spending time with, then developed into thoughts about God. The way I see it is: if God is the most important thing in my life then, I should treat him not just as good as i do guys I like, but better.
Sometimes you just want to spend time with a certain someone. It's how you get close. No excuses or reasons for spending the time together.
No where to go, nothing to do, no one to see. You just want to be in their presence. You and them. Distractions are few. Nature is plenty. Quality time. Obviously, if you hang out and do nothing all the time it would be boring. But sometimes I want to hand out for the sake of hanging out. It's how I say I like you a lot. It's how love, whatever type of love it is, grows.
Quality time is definitely my number one love language. It bothers me when I'm out with someone- or just hanging out with someone- and they spend the whole time on their phone.
It bothers me when i feel like the conversation really got deep and real. Then we have to run off somewhere else.
It bothers me that we all 'need' reasons to be together. Planned entertainment.
That we waste so much money on eating out, coffee, movies. Just to spend this 'time' together. Time full of distractions, waiters, terrible coffee and even time where you can't actually talk at all.
I'm so sick of spending too much money on unworthy things. On coffee that isn't fair trade just so we can have something to hold while we gossip and complain about our "friends".
I'm sick of hearing complaints about church. I'm sick of our "grown up conversations" about taxes and politics.
Sometime I want to just be.
Be in the presence the people I love.
I want to wander the beach. Climb a mountain. Chill in a lake. And talk about life and God and good things.
This is true for my friends but I should be even more true for my God.
I want to live a life of selfless, depthless love. I want to spend my time giving and drawing closer to God so that I can stop doing these things I'm sick of.
I want to Focus on the ways that God enriches our lives. On the times we've seen his hand and on the miracles he has done. On the awesome things he has created.
And this is why I keep Sabbath. I spend a day hanging out with God- the day he asks me in the bible, to set aside permanently for dates with him. The day Jesus kept.
This day is for Quality time where him and I can hang out and love can grow. I try to keep distractions to a minimum. But I'm so no where near perfect. Often there's less quality than time in my "quality time". I want to spend more of my sabbaths worshiping, praising, being in the bush. Enjoying God's creations. Hanging out with friends and talking about God and doing things That help others.
The closer i draw to him the more in love i'll be and the more I can grow- into who he wants me to be. Which is exactly who I want to be.
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